I woke up at 5:45 again and called to check on Drew. The nurse said his night was "not bad." No changes really, still breaking through from time to time, but he also had a fever. The tylenol study is over, so he's not getting it intravenously anymore, but they did give him an oral dose through his ng tube. They are probably going to do a bronchoscopy today to try and see what the problem is with his left lung. They can also use that to suck up fluid or clots that they might find, so it might help him.
We got here at 7:30 and the new nurse, Jessica, was suctioning him. He's coughing a lot, even though he's not really waking up and it looks very uncomfortable. He also can't make any sound with the tube down his throat so it looks sort of like silent convulsing. They gave him more fentanyl and versed because he just couldn't get comfortable. And his fever spiked to 102.5 despite the tylenol so now he's on a cooling blanket. The nurse said his x-ray doesn't look very good, so I doubt there will be talk of extubating today.
I feel so weak today. I felt that way even before we got here. This is taking longer than I anticipated. It's frustrating. And they always make it sound like extubation is just around the corner. If they said it will be 3-4 days from the beginning it wouldn't be so hard to handle. I hate to see him uncomfortable and I know the coughing is painful. I haven't even been here an hour and I've had to step out of his room twice to have a good cry. I guess I was due.
So please pray for the fever to go down, for no infection, for the fluid in his lung to disappear, and for his comfort. I've been picturing him in the arms of Jesus while he's unconscious and keep asking Him to return Drew to me when he's ready. Please pray for my strength, I feel like a crazy person today.