Saturday, May 23, 2009
Another Heart Anniversary
One year ago today, Drew was having his third open-heart surgery. This picture is what we saw after waiting 12 hours for him to come back from the OR.
I woke up early this morning and couldn't go back to sleep. Maybe my body remembers that a year ago I was up at this time. We were already at Stanford waiting in the PACU. Drew was dressed in his hospital gown, hungry, but waiting patiently. I was scared and anxious but trying not to show it.
It's funny, because I don't remember this day as one of the worst of my life, which is how I remember the day of his diagnosis. In fact, until today I wasn't even sad. I just couldn't believe how quickly the time had gone by, that it's already been a whole year. In some ways it seems like surgery wasn't that long ago, the wounds are still so fresh. But in other ways, it does seem like a lifetime ago. Look what Drew is doing today! He has so much more energy, he's gotten taller, he's been healthier (no hospitalizations for a whole year!), he's playing t-ball and soccer and going to kindergarten next year. This year has been one of incredible progress.
But this morning, as I sit alone in the quiet of my house, and think back to that day, it makes me cry. It was one of the hardest things I've ever gone through. I hope I never have to do it again. But the reality of life with a heart kid is that you never know...Drew may need another surgery in the future, and if he does, I'll be right there with him doing it all over again.