Sunday, May 6, 2007

I love him so much

Drew did such a good job during his echo on Friday. It took an hour and a half and he lay still pretty much the whole time. He also said “it doesn’t hurt” when they had to put the stickers on him and “she’s looking at my heart” when they started using the transducer. We brought his favorite movie, Cars, and he watched it while the tech performed the echo. After it was over she gave Drew a prize. He chose two more tiny plastic alligators.

I was watching the screen the whole time and although his heart is imperfect, it was beautiful to see. The coordination involved is amazing. You can’t deny the existence of God while watching his tiny heart beating, all the valves opening and closing, the muscles pulsing at just the right time. And as I watched I found myself praying: please let me keep him. I love him so much.

We had such a great day yesterday. Our whole family was playing together and laughing and having fun. And I found myself consciously storing these memories, building up a catalog of good times, in case these are some of the last that we have. Is that crazy? It’s not that I think something horrible will happen, I just don’t know what will happen. And I don’t want to miss anything.

Drew finally got to take a bath yesterday. We were supposed to keep his puncture site clean and dry for four days, which meant no bath. Drew loves baths and would ask every night after dinner if he could have one. So he was really excited last night to finally take a bath with his sister.


Anonymous said...

I find myself doing the exact same thing with Ramona and Simon, storing up the good memories. In a way it makes the good times bittersweet.

Drew has such a sweet smile, such a bright look, thanks for sharing the photos. And Ava has a lot of hair I'm just noticing!

Happy Sunday, hope today is a good one too,


kate said...

two whole days with the kiddos being so sweet and you and dan being extra cute. i don't know why you're trying to make me fall more in love with your family, b/c it just can't happen! i think it's not crazy to store up the good times. even when drew is all mended up and just as healthy as his sister, there are gonna be times that you will NEED those stored up times to remind you why you do this incredibly difficult job of being a mommy! i don't know, i'm still tired so forgive me if i'm saying anything bad. love ya sweets!

rose said...

WE LOVE HIM SO MUCH TOO! life is so precious we should all live each day storing up the good memories. it truely is a gift. thanks for sharing glimpses of your family.
love you guys,
the adamsons

Jessica said...

Oh honey, you're making me ache.
I just want to give you a hug. You hug your babies and I'll hug mine.
Love you.

astimac said...

I can remember like it was yesterday trying to store the wonderful moments in my mind and heart, forever! I did it with all three of my children and now I do it with yours!
Love, Mom